God is so faithful..

I hope you all have read last week's posts about finding my new church (Redeeming Love Gospel Church), and the one about my discouragement after working with the teens last Wednesday night. If not, go back and read them, and then come back.

I was REALLY struggling with going to work with the teens tonight. I did NOT want to go. I was thinking, what the heck am I doing there? Last time I literally just stood around and talked with a few of the teens and felt extremely awkward and intimidated. I realized today though, that I think half of that awkwardness was due to the fact that Matt never introduced me to the kids. So everyone was probably sitting there wondering who the heck I was and what the heck was I doing there. Before I went tonight I came to the conclusion that it was one of two things:
1. It's exactly where God wants me in ministry, so all opposition that can come at me, WILL.
or
2. I'm way off and it's not where He wants me.
And well, there's only one way to find out; KEEP GOING!

OK lemme start from the beginning of the night. Bible study starts at 6, so this week I decided to go to that before youth group. I actually was really looking forward to that. It's pretty much free form. Someone will bring up a verse or a topic that they want to dig into, and things just happen from there. It was actually pretty cool. I sat next to Pastor Mike, who was mediating it. He is mad cool. Probably in his early 40s, and his 2 daughters are the two girls I met first last week and really loved.

I've been praying lots lately for wisdom and direction in EVERY area in my life. Right now I'm in this weird place, where not one thing in my life makes sense. I do not understand anything. So there's no other option but to throw my hands in the air and say, "God I trust You, just guide me and give me direction, You are in control." A couple of the things I've been praying about, is:
1. Obviously, is this the church He wants me at.
2. Am I really supposed to be working with the teens or was I WAYYY off.
3. My lease on my MINI is up in about 6 months and I have NO idea what to get next and whether or not I should lease again, buy, etc.

Right after Bible study (6-7 pm and youth group is 7-9), as I was walking outside to find the kids, I was talking to Pastor Mike. He asked if the MINI Cooper was mine. I said yeah, and he was asking if I liked it, yada yada. Come to find out, he has an Audi S8. I almost passed out. He too, is a European car enthusiast. He's had Porsche's, Audi's, Beemers. He's also a car salesman part time. He gets BMWs fresh out of leases, that are in perfect condition, full warranty still, and sells them. (Audi's and Porsche's and Benz's and others, too). As most of you know, my next car was going to be a BMW. He said he buys them and because they're 2 or 3 years old, 20k or more comes right off. He's going to talk to me within the upcoming months about my options and he's going to see what car he can get for me! YAY!! No more leases, I'll actually be buying it to own..

Then as we were talking about cars, Matt came by and told him the weather forecast for tomorrow. I asked him where they were going. He told me they are part of the 46ers. For those of you who don't know what that is, there are 46 peaks in the Adirondacks and there's a club called the 46ers and their goal is to climb all of them. ARE YOU SERIOUS??? This is EXACTLY what I wanted to do. I've been researching it, and if you've been reading, you know about my new found love for nature and my extreme desire to start hard core hiking. So he told me they go in groups, and meet up with other people from other churches and stuff too.
I nearly passed out at this point. Lately I've been feeling kinda bummed because I really want to hike, but have no one to go with. WOW! Two huge things in a row.

Then he went inside cause he was going to intercessory prayer from 7-9.

At this point, all the teens were scattered around outside. I went up to one of the groups and stayed with them from 7-8, the whole time we were outside. It went really good. I really had to press through though, but I definitely in time see some awesome relationships formed with some of them. But I'm not going to lie, it's not going to be easy. I could see myself easily becoming discouraged, but I just keep fighting it.

I came inside with them all for praise and worship, and started talking to Stacey, Matt's wife. Come to find out, she eats all organic food, only feeds her kids all organic too. She eats a diet free of wheat, glutens, and dairy. She basically eats the same things I do. As all of you know, this is a topic I could talk about for hours. It's up there with European cars. We sat talking about this stuff for about a half an hour before we all left.

But wow.......God is so faithful. I went literally dreading tonight. Before I went, I prayed for Him to show me (even though I already feel He has), if this is where He truly wants me. And it was like BAM, one thing after another....
I know just because the Pastor likes European cars, and is part of the 46ers, and another woman likes organic food.....I know that may not mean a lot to some of ya's. But for me...it was exactly what I needed, a confirmation.

I'm pretty excited right now about all of this. I've literally been hanging on by a thread lately, just waiting for a breakthrough, waiting for an answer, ANY answer to ANYTHING right now. And as usual, He was faithful.


oh and PS.....I think Freddie and I signed up for the Air Force today at lunch.
more details to come......