Leave it to T...

I'm currently home, day #2 with poison SOMETHING. Doctor wasn't quite sure, however after looking at pics, I'm almost 100% sure it's poison oak.
I have the highest pain tolerance of anyone I know....and this is literally crippling me. I haven't slept in days which is making me so over-emotional that I can't even talk to someone without sobbing my eyes out. My poor mom came over yesterday and sat here and watched me cry for almost two hours, and finally she said, "Would you just go to bed!!".....I think the final breaker for her, was when it went to...AND LOOK AT HOW FAT I AM!!! I guess if anything makes you feel unattractive, it would be disgusting lesions all over your arm.

Ok before you think I'm a wuss and way over dramatic.....let me explain. It's on my arm...which I guess I could somewhat deal with (pain level 10/10 and it's giving me chills down my spine).....but IT'S IN MY EAR.
Don't ask. I have NO idea. So umm...yeah...not to be gross..but its like draining, and its going down my ear canal causing excruciating pain all down my neck and across my head. I'm on antibiotic/steroid ear drops, and I can't take systemic steroids cause I'm allergic, so I'm on topical steroids. But the ear pain is nearly unbearable.

I kinda feel like tearing some one's knee caps off, or kicking someone in the shins.
I'm sure in like a week, I'm going to be laughing at all of this. Like seriously, WHO THE FRIG GETS POISON IVY IN THEIR EAR?????? This WILL be funny to me soon.
But right now....umm NOT so much. I kinda feel like going through the woods and killing every plant that's alive, just for fun. Like going in with some Round Up and just spraying an entire forest down or something.

My birthday is Saturday and all I can think of is that I'm going to look like a freak and no one's going to want to be near me.


I'd love to put up a picture of what my arm looks like right now....but I'll spare those who are super sensitive and puke easy. Although, I did send a few of you a pic on my phone, in which I've gotten these responses:

1. ewww...now THAT does not look like poison ivy........um please stay away. I showed everyone in the office the picture, they told you to stay home you look diseased.
-Freddie

2. ew OMG
-Ang

3. EWWW EWWWW I'm so sorry that has to be so painful. (yup IT IS)
-Mom

4. Please don't send me a pic of it
-Deb Ferris

5. That is freakin nasty.
-Deb B

6. What did the doctor do, a shot or anything?
-Sue

Thank you everyone for your love and support. hahah

And as I said, I WILL be laughing at this...just not there yet.

Brittany's response upon stopping by and witnessing this first hand: Can't we just pop those? Can I bring you to the hospital?
I honestly think she handled the visuals of this way better then I am because I want to throw up.

Well, long sleeves are going to be my best friend for the next couple days, possibly weeks.
And umm....I'm going to look terrible on my birthday Saturday.